Invisible in Your Plans, Prisoner of Your Fear

I Wish You Could See My Heart I wish you could truly look inside and understand what beats within me. Yet every time I speak of what wounds me, you see only drama—only a woman overreacting to nothing at all. If I dare to press for conversation you would rather avoid, you quickly label me: difficult, toxic, immature… as if naming those things makes my pain disappear. You never really cared about the hurt you yourself caused. You grew used to neglecting me, to stepping past my needs as if they did not exist. You demanded I remain “fine” even while you gave me nothing to sustain me. You expected me to smile and be content while you pursued things that never made space for me. You told me to hold fast and stay close—yet you never gave me anything solid I could actually hold onto. I stood by and watched you map out your own future, asking for my loyalty and support at every turn… yet nowhere in those plans was there a place marked for me. You wanted me always present, yet you treated me as invisible. Your own needs were always clear and urgent; mine were simply set aside, unseen or dismissed entirely. I too deserve happiness. I long for peace just as deeply as you do. I ache to be loved openly, proudly, and aloud—exactly the way you insist upon being loved yourself. Instead, I have lived always in your shadow. I gave up so much of my own life and choices because you said it was necessary for us. Now I feel only trapped: hollowed out, numb, and questioning my worth. My days are spent helping you build your world—while my own dreams stand still, untouched and unformed. So many times I have wanted to walk away… yet I could not. You hold me back, refusing to let me go—not out of love, but because deep down you fear I might finally bloom and find joy without you. But I hold fast to one quiet certainty: the day will come when I slip free at last. I do not know exactly when—but I know with every broken part of me: one day, I will be happy again. And that happiness will finally be mine alone.